I AM BETTER / NOW

I am better now

I had to deplete my thirst for approval

I am better now

I can’t seem to approve myself anyway, any more

I am better now

Being my own disapprover

I am better now

Knowing I won’t get what I want unless I perform

I am better now

Though I might not be free of all shackle

I am better now

In the greatest shape of my life

I am better now

Knowing I struggle away from self

I am better now

Hardened, humbled by shameful memory 

I am better now

By assumption that those I’ve harmed are better too

I am better now

Waking up and making purchases

I am better now

Realizing I’ve spent what I don’t own

I am better now

Though I was short with you this morning

I am better now

I overcompensate happy medium

I am better now

Presence over presents

I am better now

Seeing how much I want what I have no need

I am better now

Waking up and buying things

I am better now

Spending early all I’ve earned

I am better now

Buying things and learning about things

I am better now

With all my knowledge I picture a field of flowers

I am better now

I am a field of flowers 

I am better now

Waking up and praying

I am better now

I get out of bed and cradle my lover’s pet

I am better now

Waking up and praying for my friendships

I am better now

For better can not get worse

I am better now

Buying more things, my quests to fulfill

I am better now

Thousands of milligrams, caffeine

I am better now

From chemicals, internal and manmade

I am better now

With chemicals, internal and manmade

I am better now

Waking up and looking for delivery

I am better now

Doing a soliloquy